The proactive Collin.

He is not very proactive yet. But, he is getting there.
Oh. You know how when you talk about things or people to other people and you tell them you have a sure fire idea? How to explain. For example, when people say that they are fine when they're clearly not, or they are over someone that they clearly haven't spend one second not thinking about.
Well, that's been me. So I stopped posting for a few days. I figured if I lied to myself enough it would become true. But that never became the case. I stopped posting in some attempt to truly get over my problems.
As I sit here in Economics, in touching distance of Ashley. I realized something. I don't feel the same way. I care about her a lot more then the average bear, but that love feeling. Is completely gone. I'm proud of myself. Even if love is just attatchment, which I am beggining to feel it is. Just some horrible, non-productive habit.
Anywho. I called all my colleges. Allegheny never got my application. This sucks for a million and a half reasons. But! It doesn't matter for one. And that trumps the others. If I do decide to join the Air Force reserves or some form of military something, I don't have to worry about going to college until the spring semester anyway. So, my lack of applying doesn't matter! Yay for me. *crosses fingers*
Today I am going to call Markus. To pick his brain a little more before I make this completely life changoing decision that I want to make sure I have put enough thought into making. I also am going to poke Mr. Kuhar. Though I have never had him as a teacher, he is great friends with Mr.Weiss. He also has been in the AF reserves for 6 years and knows about it more then most, and has no reason to sell me anything. I will value his opinion highly, plus I get out of another class. -Win-
Starting today I am running 6 miles a day. Seeing as I know for a fact I can't run 6 miles straight in a row yet. I am going to run as much as I can and then move myself until 6 are completed. And hopefully before BT I can run it all and then it won't be a big deal.