Monday

12:00am-1:30am:Hanging out with Doug.
1:31am: Take sleeping pills.
1:31am-5:30am: sleep
5:30am-5:45am :change and pack bookbag
5:45am-6:15am:walk to the Y
6:15am-6:45am:run
6:45am-6:50am: protein shake+banana
6:50am-7:20am:walk home
7:20am-7:50am:talk to Greyson/listen to music
7:50am-7:55am:change for school
7:55am-8:00am:leave for school
8:00am-8:15am:Talk to Jared.
8:15am-9:17am:English.
9:17am-10:19am:Play a game in Economics. Laugh genuinely for the first and last time today.
10:19am-11:00am:Skip forensics, talk to Mr.Kitchen about graduating. Told that my graduation is completely dependent on Mr.Herring's decision. Told I am missing 18 days illegally, to graduate you must have less then 10.
11:00am-11:21am:Walk to Mr.Weiss' to ride out the rest of forensics. Read the SV newspaper, and snuggle into the couch. Text Ashley. Tell her I hope she gets better, she wasn't in second period.
11:22am-12:30pm: Human systems. Talk to the teacher and Taylor. Smile that Ashley is still not in school, but truly wish she was.
12:30pm-1:00pm: Lunch. Ulmer wasn't here... I had to go down to the lunchroom. Get stopped for dress code. Talk my way out of it. Eat food. Sit at a table filled with people I don't know.
1:00pm-2:05pm: Sociology. Start doing work. Jared and Kenzie won't leave me alone. I was on edge and I didn't want to snap. I did anyway. I told Kenzie her ex boyfriend will be nothing but bullet catcher when he joins the military. Tell Jared out loud that I am sick of her stupid shit and she needs to grow up.
2:05pm-3:07pm: Calculus. Write down notes. Get told I have four quizzes and a test to make up. I have a 22%. Told I won't pass this quarter. Talk to Lexy. Eat a piece of pie in honor of pi day.
3:07pm-3:30pm: go home.
3:30pm-3:45m:Eat dinner, change, talk to nick and mom.
3:45pm-4:00pm: go to doug's hair appt.
4:00pm-5:30pm:doug's hair appt.
5:30pm-6:00pm: shop at best buy. Buy rainbow six.
6:00pm-6:15pm: go home.
6:15pm-7:00pm:install rainbow six.
7:00pm-7:05pm:play rainbox six.
7:05pm-8:00pm:sit around waiting to do something. but don't. sit on fb and read /b/ out of boredem.
8:00pm-9:00pm:text ashley. get told she doesn't care about me, at all. Cry a lot. Cry so hard my stomach starts to hurt. Throwup a lot.
9:00pm-10:00pm:Talk to Nick. Realize that I don't miss Ashley, I just miss her taking up my time with happiness. Realize I need to find something that makes me happy.
10:00pm-11:00pm:. Set up black ops and my computer in Doug's room.
11:00pm-11:41pm:Spam Greyson on fb to no avail. Write this blog to make myself realize that my life doesn't revolve around Ashley. And even on days when she is a huge deal and has a huge effect. She truly makes up an hour of my day.
11:42pm:Realize I am truly over her, that I will for a while yearn for that feeling and will even think of ashley and think that's the solution. But realize that she is not the same person, and barely effects me anymore.
11:43pm:Realize I am growing up.
11:44pm: Deep breath.
11:45pm: Feel proud of myself for making it through another day. A productive one at that. I know things will get better. I just know it.